To say that I am high strung is honestly not even getting close with what I’ve been dealing with in recent years.
I actually feel a sense of tension almost all the time.
The way I was raised has a good amount to do with it. Not only was it an atmosphere of powerful fear but there was a component of compulsory achievement on top of that. It was as though from the moment I started elementary school, I had to be at my very best. And if I wasn’t, there were brutal consequences in store for me. So no wonder that I am a knot of stress pretty much all the time. This is easing a bit now that I have been introduced to cannabis as well as medicinal cannabis products. My therapist recommended that I go to a highly suggested cannabis dispensary. There I would find a staff that was ready to help me with whatever problem with the right sativa or indica strain for me. And honestly, it was as simple as that. I was at the cannabis dispensary for approximately 30 minutes as the man assisting me worked to get me a couple of things to try. And that was essentially it. I went back to my dwelling as well as tried the initial dose. The thing that I noted most was the feeling of simply being present. My mind wasn’t actually racing as well as I wasn’t in fear of what the next couple of moments could potentially bring. It was a feeling that I had once glimpsed but was never totally engulfed by. That night, I slept better than I had in my full life. When I started winding up in my head the very next afternoon, I tried a bit more as well as was able to stop that horrendous cycle.