For much of my life, I saw having epilepsy as not just limiting but totally self defining.
It felt like I was just so different from anyone else due to the randomness of my having a seizure.
So, it quickly became my identity. Now that I’ve incorporated medical marijuana into my treatment scheme, I’m feeling less and less that way. Now, I’m out on my own in the world making the effort to find my own way and a life I can live. My parents really didn’t foster this sort of direction as they were just scared for me all the time. I’m learning from therapy and using medical cannabis products that fear is the main thing that has been holding me back. It’s the fear of seizures, the fear of being different and the fear of accepting myself as I am. When I did some research after a friend passed on some cannabis information, I learned just how well medical marijuana can work for seizures. This knowledge encouraged me to learn how to get a medical marijuana card. From there, my therapist and the experts at the medical cannabis dispensary have helped me find the right cannabis products for me. It’s been a huge journey of discovery for me. And along the way, I not that my seizures are less frequent and not as severe due, in part, to medical marijuana. That is a wonderful thing. However, it’s not the lone goal because medical marijuana is also helping me to simply accept who I am right now. And I’m no longer afraid of that self.